Before I went over I knew a couple of friends that came back. I asked, "What was it like?" and they didn't know how to explain it and I didn't know what I was asking. And when I came back I ended up being the same way. Almost mute.I tried to explain to people. I'm a verbal person, so I really wanted people to understand what I had gone through. My parents gave me a cocktail party. They didn't know what else to do. They gave me a cocktail party like it was a graduation party. And they realized in the middle of the party, they both did and I guess that's why I love them so much, that they really had made a mistake.